MEDICAL
Molly had her MRIs done on Friday at the University of Wisconsin Hospital. They went relatively quickly, but it was a long day. Saturday we mailed the CD of the imaging to Dr. Frim at the University of Chicago Hospital. Hoping to hear from him today or tomorrow. I'll update when we know something.
MOLLY
As best as we can remember, the last 10 days have been the worst stretch of the worst symptoms ever for Molly, including the weeks leading up to her previous surgeries. Mentally for her this has been really difficult. She almost never finishes a sentence or thought without significant pauses to gather her thoughts. About half the time she just gives up trying to say it.
She has very little balance. Extreme fatigue and weakness. She was so bad on Monday that when she got to work (part-time at local elementary school) a couple of friends in the school office saw how bad she was doing and had to drive her home. She's probably done driving unless things improve. She pretty much never walks anywhere unless she has something to help keep her balance. She's almost fallen a couple of times.
As a whole, life itself is very overwhelming for her. Just leaving the house and being around anything that isn't very familiar causes her great mental stress and leads to physical tension. Her whole body will tense up very tight and see has difficulty stopping it. It's an internal reaction to things she can't control.
With a couple of days off of work and staying home more, she's at least feeling a little less tension. The symptoms are still there, and she's very emotional. But we hope a rest might help.
ME
I'll be honest. I feel very frustrated. It's tough looking at my beautiful wife and see so much pain and frustration and sadness in her eyes. It's tough seeing her struggle to say even a simple thought. It was painful last week to see her near meltdown in a grocery store. I had to spend several hours last week dealing with doctors & insurance & hospitals on the phone and email because the hospital required something unnecessary from our insurance company. It was a total mess. In the end we got it straightened out. And I'm sure it was a simple mistake. But it made my week miserable.
GOD
We can't help but wonder about these difficulties and what God is doing. The things we are working on most in our church are the things we are finding most complicated now with Molly's needs and struggles. Spending time with others, even those we know the best at Doxa, is great strain and increases her tension, quickly leading to exhaustion and other symptoms. The spiritual warfare aspect of this seems clear. It's changing the way I'm praying.
We continue to talk and pray together about the goodness of God, His ability to heal and our request that He would heal Molly, and His power made perfect in weakness and the possibility of the weakness remaining rather than being taken away.
If you would, say a prayer for Molly and our family.
Ugh.
Praying you up.
Posted by: Jonathan Herron | 03/21/2012 at 01:33 PM
Praying right now.
Posted by: Darryl | 03/21/2012 at 01:35 PM
Praying, Steve. Love to Molly & the kids.
Posted by: Ryan | 03/21/2012 at 01:35 PM
Praying for you both, Steve!
Posted by: Trevin Wax | 03/21/2012 at 01:37 PM
Praying for you two - and your children.
Posted by: Todd | 03/21/2012 at 01:46 PM
Prayers brother.
Posted by: Adam McHugh | 03/21/2012 at 02:01 PM
praying for you buddy and molly, sorry to hear that the symptoms have worsened :(
Posted by: Rnkhan | 03/21/2012 at 02:20 PM
Praying for Molly, your kids, and you Steve.
Posted by: Will Adair | 03/21/2012 at 02:44 PM
Love you man. Praying for you, Molly, and the kiddos.
Posted by: Timmy Brister | 03/21/2012 at 02:53 PM
Praying for you all.
Posted by: Terry Gibson | 03/21/2012 at 02:59 PM
Praying for a respite Steve!
Posted by: Sam Ticas | 03/21/2012 at 04:00 PM
Praying for you both! Watching your spouse suffer is so difficult! Hang in there! Call if you need anything!
Posted by: Jennifer Knight | 03/21/2012 at 04:23 PM
Praying for you Steve. Trusting the Spirit to comfort you, and your family! Luv ya bro.
Posted by: Josh Cousineau | 03/21/2012 at 06:18 PM
I'm sorry Steve. Will be praying for you guys. -SH
Posted by: Scott Hodge | 03/21/2012 at 08:36 PM
Steve, you and Molly continue to be in my prayers. Dr. Frim is an excellent neurosurgeon and I pray that he helps dear Molly. If you need anything, remember that the ICA is here for both of you.
All the best,
Pete Dal Bello
Founder/President
International Chiari Association (ICA)
www.ChiariAssociation.org
Posted by: International Chiari Association (ICA) | 03/23/2012 at 06:20 PM
Praying for you, Molly & your family!
Posted by: ChrisMarlow | 03/24/2012 at 10:07 AM
Thanks all for the comments, love, prayers, and encouragement.
Posted by: Steve McCoy | 03/26/2012 at 07:46 PM